EYB: The Sleeping Beauty


As mentioned before, I’m performing in the Stevenage EYB production of The Sleeping Beauty at the Gordon Craig Theatre 15-17th October. We had our first rehearsals this weekend, 2-8pm yesterday and 12-6pm today, pretty intense hours, but things are finally underway! Since the audition in June and casting day in July, it seemed like such a long wait, but it’s finally begun… I was a mix of excited/nervous yesterday as I really didn’t know what to expect schedule wise, but now after two days I have to say it’s actually less exhausting than I expected! I’m not saying it’s easy at all, but the sessions vary from 45 minutes to 1hr 30, and I was pretty much expecting them all to be 1hr+ with fewer breaks than we’re getting. Not that I’m complaining – or saying it’s a walk in the park!

We’re split into three groups for a warm up class at the beginning of each rehearsal after a meeting with parents. Class lasts for roughly 45 minutes, with a relatively long barre before moving into the centre for pirouettes, adage and allegro. It’s been so long since I had 45 minute classes it’s amazing how fast it goes!

Yesterday we then went straight in with an hour session en pointe learning the dance for Act 3. I’ve been cast as a Guest, there’s about 20 of us, the majority en pointe (including myself) and some on flat, who are basically the corps de ballet, so we’ll be on stage during all three acts for a lot of the time and hopefully have quite a bit to do.

After a costume fitting for the prologue we had another hour or so carrying on, and then at the end of the day we all come together in the main hall and perform the sections that have been learnt in the order of the ballet so that we get used to the sequence of everything and at the same time get to see what everyone else has done as well. Obviously in between all that we had a few breaks as well, varying from 1 hour to 15 minutes.

Today was similar, starting with class as normal and then recapped what we did yesterday before adding on. I have to say by the end of the first hour spent en pointe my feet are struggling a bit! I’ve been en pointe for about 3 years now, but I’m only used to spending half an hour a week doing syllabus exercises, the majority of which are at the barre which isn’t a whole lot of use now! I’m fairly confident my feet are going to get a lot stronger very quickly doing this! However, I’m yet to get a blister which is an amazing achievement, it’s just the throbbing pain on the tips of my big toes I’m dealing with.

Today we learnt the whole prologue as well which is almost the whole cast on stage together at the Christening.

So that’s the first weekend over! We don’t have another rehearsal until the 25th and then we’re straight in with Friday 4-8:30, Saturday 2-8:00, Sunday 12-6:00… wish my toes luck please. And my brain, for attempting to remember all the choreography during the 3 week break!! I can’t wait to go back already 🙂

Big Ballet |Dreams That Glitter


Ok so this post is a little late, I’ve been meaning to write it for a couple of weeks now but I’ve been distracted by dance and art deadlines (I probably should be doing art right now but writing this seemed more appealing). 

Anyway. Big Ballet was a three part documentary on Channel 4 a few weeks ago that was trying to showcase the fact that you don’t have to be small to be a dancer. Wayne Sleep bravely decided to explore the taboo subject and ventured into the world of overweight dancers. He auditioned men and women from all over and selected the best of them to be in his dance company, with his ultimate aim to produce a performance of Swan Lake, one of the most famous ballets of all time. 

I liked the idea of the program, of attempting to break down that barrier of strict rules when it comes to the professional ballet world, however I do think there are reasons for the specific qualities of a prima ballerina. It simply doesn’t look as aesthetically pleasing if a 200lb dancer in a leotard and ribboned shoes comes across the stage, I think the heavier you are it must be harder to be graceful. Having said that, considering the range of weights of the people that were shown at the audition stage, and looking at those who then got into the company, I think the ones that got in were considerably smaller, and maybe this defeated the object of the program slightly?

 

 

Now I’m not trying to be offensive but if any of those girls really loved and cared about ballet as much as they were making out to, they’d surely do something about their weight. Ballerinas need to look tall and elegant on stage and to do this you must have long, slim limbs. I’m not saying all ballerinas should be tall, but they at least give the impression of being taller by really extending their lines and pulling up through the body. A second thing, a ballerina can’t possibly be that much overweight with all the physical demands of the art form. It’s a very strenuous activity and part of the reason why most professional dancers are so slim and toned is because of all the work they are doing and the time they spend dancing in the studio rehearsing or performing on stage. A lot of preparation is gone into putting together shows and what you see on stage is the final result of that.  Professional dancers (and so aspiring ones probably should too) have a specific diet to satisfy the needs of their bodies. They would need sugary foods from time to time to keep their energy up as well as carbs for long term energy. The girls on Big Ballet always seemed to be eating rubbish around the camera or off for a McDonalds, and I think if you want to be a dancer then you have some kind of respect for your body and don’t want to be filling it with fatty horrible foods. 

My next point is how these women wanted to be referred to as ‘real women’ and not fat. Wayne initially called them fat in one of the VTs and that sparked off a lot of reactions from the bigger girls. He didn’t mean it to be harsh or mean, but at the end of the day that is what they are. In that kind of industry fat is just a word to describe people who are overweight, and that’s not healthy. I think the women did overreact and take a bit too much offense to that simple comment. It basically implies that women who are fit, healthy, slim or even just naturally skinny are not ‘real’. It’s the same as beauty campaigns claiming that they have ‘real women’ instead of models. Are models and dancers not real then? What are they? One lady on the show referred to dancers as being ‘robots’ which I found quite offensive and don’t see how that’s any more positive than calling them fat. Yes, dancers may work their bodies and do things with them that ‘normal’ people (excuse the term, as I feel that calling certain people normal is no better than what I’m trying to make a point about anyway but you know what I mean) probably wouldn’t, but that’s what dance has become and it does not mean that dancers should not be considered as real people.

Dance, and ballet in particular has evolved a lot over the last hundred years and like anything it has changed and adapted over time. It is now highly competitive and the standard is so high it’s almost ridiculous, but each generation wants to push themselves and be even more amazing than the last. At some point in the past someone decided (probably a man) that female ballet dancers should dance on their toes… however did they come up with that? As a dancer there is no slacking if you want to get anywhere because there is always people younger than you that are probably better than you and they are becoming the next generation of dancers behind you. Only the best of the best will get to be principal ballerinas at the top. 

I’ve kind of gone off on a bit of a tangent haven’t I… Back to Big Ballet. I thought a lot of the dancers did have a lot of talent, the majority of them had done ballet as a child and been told they were too fat to do it professionally or just quit in their own time or whatever, but many of them still had basic technique and there were a few pairs of definite ballet legs and feet in there. i did think it was quite sad how some of them had had years of dance training and never got anywhere but this was their chance to go somewhere with it. Throughout the dance classes they had you could see they were being pushed hard by Wayne and Monica Loughman and many of them rose to that and coped really well. 

They all developed quite rapidly and by the end they did have a full ballet and at times I’m sure they were doubting whether they would or not. it seemed to be quite successful and it was a brilliant opportunity for dancers who are slightly larger, and I think the company are possibly trying to take things a bit further and see what else they can do considering further projects. If you’re interested, go to @Big_Ballet_UK on twitter and follow what they’re up to.

In conclusion, I think that the ballet stereotypes are very unlikely to change, especially when it comes to weight. Unfortunate though it is that dancers on the larger side may never get the opportunity to perform in a renowned company and tour the country, some of the most important features of ballet are being able to dance everything with a perfect elegance, on your toes, have perfect technique and for the women to be lifted effortlessly by the man. This will always remain. 

I didn’t know this was going to turn into such a lengthy almost rant like post, but if you watched the show I’d love to know what you thought of it, or if you didn’t – what are your views on bigger ballet dancers? And lastly, I’m sorry if some of my comments came across slightly bitchy… 

You can find out more about the show and watch clips and exclusives including the full performance of Swan Lake here on the Channel 4 website: http://www.channel4.com/programmes/big-ballet

Dancer Project |Dreams That Glitter


After rediscovering the work ‘Dancers Among Us’ and the ‘Ballerina Project’ I managed to convince my dancer friends to pose for me so I could take some pictures of my own inspired by those photographers I’ve spoken about previously. We went up to the park and through the woods to take a few action shots and then went into the library, we did get a few odd looks here and there but I really like the results. Did I mention it was for my art project? We’ve started our exam projects now and I’m doing mine based around dance so after some artist research on dance photography, this was my next step. Thank you to my wonderful models Lauren and Maisie!

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Bloch Sonatas|Dreams That Glitter


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These are my third pair of pointe shoes in the last year… which for my first year of taking a half an hour pointe class every week is rather a lot! But I’m hoping the rule ‘third time lucky’ will come into play here. Previously I’ve had Freed Studio IIs and Freed Classics. These are Bloch Sonatas, and they already feel better. They’re a 4 1/2 D which is the widest they come, and I also had them steamed out a bit just to give a little more space in the width. I got them in a little dance shop in Bury down St John’s Street and it was really good in there. We went in in the morning and I wasn’t fully intending to get another pair of pointes, but I got in there and saw them and really wanted to try them because I haven’t had much luck with my Freeds it’s just not coming easily to me at all, even after a year. I know it’s not supposed to be exactly simple but still. The last two fittings I’ve had I’ve been done within 15 minutes and only tried on one pair of shoes, maybe two that vary in half a size. The first pair were too small and too narrow, the second pair fit fine, I just felt there might have been something better, and since I’d never tried another brand except for Freed which are my teacher’s favourites, I wanted to see what else was out there, and I think I’m glad I did with these. The guy that fitted them was lovely, he took his time with me and took the time to make sure they fitted me correctly. He was very honest about them and was clear that he wouldn’t sell me a pair if he wasn’t comfortable with how they fitted which was good and he had a lot of experience. 45 minutes later and a lot of ‘um’ and ‘ah’ing, I decided to get them. Pointe shoes are very expensive it’s not like buying a regular pair of shoes, I realise that and I realise money doesn’t grow on trees, but nana was willing to buy them for me as a christmas present which was brilliant, though I was prepared to buy them myself. They were £39.50 with ribbons which was also cheaper than my last two pairs.

I had a little play with them earlier after sewing on the ribbons and I can safely say they’re more successful than pairs I’ve had before, I’m pretty sure anyway. It’s hard to tell for sure because I did wear them without tights or toe pads which are at home, but I can tell they’re more supportive for my feet and seem to be able to get over the box more easily, so fingers crossed.

Summer Fitness|Dreams That Glitter


Me and my friend Maisie are doing a fitness plan for the six weeks we’re off while we have some time off school and dance so we can improve flexibility and such…We might be teaching a dance class for middle/lower school kids at some point too, so we’ve been working on some routines for that. I’m also teaching her ballet technique and some syllabus work so she can start a class in September!

So far we’ve been in the studio twice, usually for around 3 hours at a time… We’re going again on Saturday. We’ve also started yoga and Body Step (a little challenging but great for building stamina?), I’ve been in the gym a couple of times as well. I’m trying to do something active every day, I don’t want a repeat of last summer… Today I went to Armageddon (it’s like circuit training) and zumba with my mum (she’s a fitness instructor). Day off tomorrow though, so it’s all good! Can’t wait to see how much progress we can make by the end of the summer.

And you can’t forget to treat yourself after a good workout… Iced coffee or Costa’s new ‘Coffee Coolers’ are just the best, I totally recommend them.

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In Costa

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Practicing a bit of pointe work 

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My current favourite drink 

Pointe at Last|Dreams That Glitter


Pointe at last…. I feel like I’ve been waiting forever to start pointe work, to get my first pair of pointe shoes, in reality it’s probably been a couple of years. That’s still a long time in my mind… anyway, I got my first pair of pointe shoes yesterday! I’m so happy to finally have them, you’ve absolutely no idea! When I went to get them fitted I just kept panicking that something was going to go wrong, that I wouldn’t be able to get them for some reason – that they wouldn’t have a shoe wide enough for my feet (I was assured by the lady who gave me the shoes not to worry about that, English girls have wide feet, apparently), or they just wouldn’t have any in stock, or the shop would be closed and only open on a day that I couldn’t go… you get the idea. It just seemed too good to be true. But it happened so quick, I was out with them in about ten minutes! I put them on as soon as I got home and of course sneakily had a little go… they were coming on and off my feet all day really.

The only downside now, is that where I do ballet, classes don’t start up again until the 8th August (next Saturday) and I have classes on a Friday (I’m doing Inter Foundation, Beginner’s pointe, and then RAD Grade 8, back to back). But I have to check the shoes with my teacher before I darn them and sew on the ribbons… so that first lesson will just be assessing the shoes I guess…. So basically I have to wait a month to start pointe properly. In fact, 4 weeks from now, I will probably be sitting blogging about it, a little later than it is now.

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My Freed Studio II pointe shoes, 4EE 🙂

 

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I sort of feel like my blog is losing it’s original purpose… and I don’t want to do that. It’s becoming more fashion and beauty orientated, which is fine, but my blog is still called ‘If You Believe You Can Achieve’ and it will always be. The original purpose was to share hopes and dreams and opinions, and keep track of achievements and such I guess, so please don’t forget that, I’m trying not to let myself forget that. And NEVER let go of your dreams. Ever.

 

Thanks for reading 🙂